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Hello world!

In Uncategorized on May 19, 2010 at 6:48 pm

Ok so hello world!  This is my new adventure,  hence the  Yo, Ho, Yo, Ho, A mom’s life for me song in my head right now. I know it is really the Pirates theme song but it so aptly describes the journey I started in January of 2009.

I have a wonderful 8 month old little boy who is the best thing I have ever done in my entire life but the roller coaster ride called my pregnancy was anything other than that.  Our son wasn’t planned, I had stopped taking my birth control at the end of November and by the end of December I was pregnant.  When people say it only takes one time, my son is the truth to that statement.  My husband and I were so sick for that month I can tell you exactly when and where we were( I will spare you all of the gruesome details).

Surprised wouldn’t exactly be the words I use to describe how I felt when I took 3 of the pregnancy tests that show the lines and couldn’t tell the results.  I called two girlfriends who promptly told me to go but digital tests and see. I dragged my husband to my 2nd CVS for the day ( I was too embarrassed to go to the same one I went to earlier) and got more tests. $65.00 later and some tears they ( yes I did take both) confirmed I was pregnant.  I called my mother ( I was hysterical btw) who said ” how late are you” and I responded I had 2 more days until I was “supposed” to get my period but I knew I was pregnant.  I think I was officially about 2 1/2 weeks pregnant at this point and I sobbed.

As I look back on this moment over a year later, I can say what I know was going on in my head that caused the tears.  I was worried about money, I was worried I would be a horrible mom, I was worried I would make mistakes that my folks made, I was worried I couldn’t handle it, I was worried that I wasn’t in good enough shape to carry a baby.  Overall I was worried.